Confused

I'm so confused. I keep having negative thoughts recently. Just keep thinking about bad stuff gonna happen. I'm been doing my best to not think about all these things, but I just can't help it. Just too sensitive I guess. Sometimes I just wanna say it out loud, but I know I can't. I don't want to hurt anyone. Is best I release my unhappy stuff onto the songs. 

I'm ok now, btw. Just think too much I guess. 

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Genting

Recently the weather is really unpredictable. All sorts of disasters are happening. Tsunami, Volcano eruptions and more. Well the weather in Malaysia is still consider ok. But is just that Malaysia right now is just so hot!! I need to take bath like 2 to 3 times for a day sometimes. Right now, I just want to go to a place where it is cold and there is wind blowing. Like Genting! I miss the cool breeze and I wish to escape to a place where it can at least make me feel like I'm in a fantasy world. A place where there is no stress and headache and more. Just care free feeling. 

I wanna go GENTING!!! :D 

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Bonding

On the 23rd of Oct, my entire family went down to Singapore. So basically I'm suppose to be alone at home, but lucky thing I invite my Alexy bro to stay with me. Although is just a night, but it is so meaningful and magical to me. I was really hoping you can stay longer, but is ok. 

First of all on sat night, I cooked maggi mee for him. Cause both of us were hungry. Mean while he is resting at the sofa watching tv. He was already so tired and he say he can just fall asleep at the sofa. Haha.. Poor boy. So after we eat, we clean up and get ready to sleep. But this boy was suppose to read his term paper stuff. Guess what?? He fall asleep on the bed. Haha.. XD I can't just wake him up, he looked really tired. So I took the blanket and covered him up and good night! 

Then the next morning, we were suppose to wake up at 9 something, but he was still very tired so we drag until 10 something. Haha.. Such a pig la you!! :P We had dim sum for breakfast as you can see in the pictures. Is been so long we had dim sum. Is cheap, tasty and near to my house. I love dim sum and I hope you love it too. :D Then the whole overnight thing end when he went home at 3 something. 

Last but not least, I hope you like to overnight at my house and I hope I make you feel comfortable like a home. You know in my bedroom, there were 2 beds right there. And I'm always been sleeping alone in the room, but that night you were right there with me. Exactly like a brother. My real brother is always not around in my house and with your presence just make everything better. I realize I really do like to take good care of you. Do something small like cover him up with blanket before he fall asleep, make sure he is comfortable and make sure he fall asleep first. Because you are indeed my amazing brother. This is the year when I can really help you and take care of you, because next year I won't be around for you when I'm going oversea to study. 

So let me take care of you, Alexy brother. Ok? 

I love you, brother no matter what happens. :D 

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Realize

I'm been very off recently. Really not myself. I let anger, sadness, disappointment and regrets take over me. And of course I can't focus on my studies. Is time for me to really settle down and study hard like hardcore. I need to be very clear of what I want in life. 

Lucky thing, I found this song that can really motivate and boost me up. 

Telephone- Glee Cast Version

Is better than the original song. And I love it! This song makes me wanna sing and just dance along. I felt so great after singing loudly in the house and dance whatever I want. All the stress is out now.

And a few days back, I realize something really important. Like I had been smack by a big piece of wood. I'm awake. Now I understand more about people relationship. I realize I can't force anyone to express to me, even though I want that person to feel better. If I want to be a good friend, I should give that person some space and not everything can be express. I understand now. I strongly believe if that person would want to express to me, then he or she would come and find me. Because I know that person thinks of me as a good friend and I would definitely be by your side no matter what. I will be your listener. If you wanna express, then you can always come and find me. I will be there for you. :D

Lesson Learnt.. 

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Please Don't Argue

I hate arguements. Please don't argue. I will feel very sad, moody and be very worried. I'm sorry if I'm the cause of arguements. If is me, then just tell me. I don't mind even you break my heart. At least you will feel better after telling the truth. You keep saying you are ok and nothing is going on. But I keep suspecting something is wrong. Why is this? 

And when I ask you to express, you just don't want to. I know sometimes is not the right time and not the right mood to express. But you just seem like you don't want to tell me anything anymore. I know sometimes is non of my business and I can't just interrupt. Is up to you. I won't force you. All I wanna do is help you and let you lean on me. Cause this is the year I can really help. Don't you get it? Are you gonna wait until when I'm about to leave only let me help? 

Lean on me... 

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Glee

Just by hearing the word "Glee" gives me really positive and great impression on this show. I must really thank the person who introduce me this show. Thanks Shi Ting! I heard all sorts of comments for this show. Mainly bad comments. Like this show is Lame, Lousy and more. But this show is just so amazing to me. I love all the songs and I like their acting. The story line is really well structure too! 

I think I'm addicted to Glee and I can be one true fan now. Because I even have a cup of Glee.

"Glee is like fashion week but with music"- Kurt Hummel 

Season 2 of Glee is already showing in US! When is Malaysia turn? I cannot wait man! There is this one particular new song from season 2 just bring back all the great feelings I have for Glee. This song was once sang by Britney Spears. And I love the glee version. 

Toxic- Glee Cast 

Enjoy!! :D 

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Taking Care The House Again!

Haih.. My whole family are going down to Singapore again, but this time I'm not going. The main reason is because they will be at Singapore until next Monday from Saturday onwards. Darn it! I hate to be alone!! The house is gonna fill with clock ticking sound only. Hmm... On second thought. Maybe I should plan some activities for myself. I think I will hang out with friends more and watch movie all day. GREAT IDEA! I'm gonna do it! :D

Oh btw, I miss badminton like a lot! When are we gonna play my friends?? :D 

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Exam

Everyone seems like having exam. Everyone is just so busy studying and I just wish my friends exam just faster be over like a blink of an eye. How I wish. Cause I wanna go out! Desperate here! Haha.. XD I feel so bored stuck at home. Been studying like nobody business also. Cause I will have my exam at the end of november (mock exam) then the major ones will be in next year Jan. I still got time. I guess. 

I feel awake right now cause at least now I know I got to start studying if not I will end up dying in december. So is definitely STUDY FEVER TIME! :D 

To those who are having exams, Good luck and all the best! :D

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Song of The Day 5

Firework- Katy Perry

You smile- Justin Bieber 

Great songs. Enjoy! :D 

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Corolla

Oh god.. Corolla why are you keep appearing in front of me? You are driving me crazy. I cannot stop thinking about you corolla. I don't know why. I miss you like a lot and I need you like right now. I wish you could just stay beside me right now. 

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Nightmare

I don't know what is going on with me these whole week. I'm been having this same nightmare every night. Exactly the same. The nightmare is just so scary and it just stuck in my mind. It just keep haunting me every night. So every night I can't sleep well and I keep having headache. I guess when a person does not have sufficient sleep, then that person does not have enough oxygen been spread around the body. Constantly dizzy. What is the nightmare trying to do with me? Every night I just want to cry because I'm just too shock to be in that particular dream again and I'm scared.

And I guess I'm been having a lot of stress and problems too and a lot of things just happen too quickly. So I can't take it anymore and I burst into tears this whole day. In the morning in the car, In the class and On the way home while driving. 

You know when a person is scared. He or she would actually want to lean on somebody. To feel secure, safe and have assurance. I'm been trying to stay strong. I keep telling myself stay strong. But I can't take it anymore. I need somebody. I really do. 

My point is..

I need you my friends.. &

I need you brother.. 

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Enough is enough!

Stop hurting the people that I love!! Back off!! I'm SICK and tired of you!!! Sick of your attitude, sick of you keep thinking you are the best in this world and sick of you being so selfish. You are WRONG! Last time, I used to admire you because I think you are good in a lot of things. You are smart and high in IQ, but you are low in EQ and I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW. You used to give me inspiration and you used to give me great driving force. But right now, I feel so disgust even to think of you so don't you come close to me because I don't want to get your freaking DISEASE. You never listen. People are trying to help you, but you just blast them off. Where are your eyes???? You are blind and deaf I just realize. I won't let you hurt anymore people. They are the people that I care and I love. Since you don't appreciate them, then I got to defend for them. You already cross my line!!! I don't even want to know what you doing right now, cause is not even my business anymore. I don't want to know about you anymore. You are a completely stranger to me. You are just bringing sorrow and misery to people. 

But you know what. There is a huge different between me and you. I may not be as smart and achieve as many things like you, but I know how to live my life. I know the basic manner that I should do and I appreciate my family and my true friends. Having high IQ is not everything, but having high EQ is how we do build up a person and be a good person. I can tell you this. You got zero EQ and I got 100 EQ. You used to love me and you used to care about me. What happen?? But I don't need you anymore. I'm a completely different person now. I'm stronger than ever. You know why? Because I got my family and my friends. I know that I got great support from my family. And my friends are always there for me when I'm down. Even my close and true friends can even support me well ,and I felt like I have another family taking care of me ,and there is one particular friend give a feeling of me having a real brother to me. You never been there for me and you never care. 

That's all for now. If you got more things to destroy, I'm ready for you. Bring it on!! I'm no longer afraid of you. Bye Bye..

I'm watching you... 

:) 

 

Max Boy Dinner

On the same day of 2nd October is the day, my family and I celebrate Max Boy's Birthday. As you already know, I'm already too full to eat but is a birthday party and it will be such a waste if I didn't eat. So end up I eat 5 to 6 plates. Haha.. XD Oh no no.. FATTY!!  

Lemon Garden Cafe is at Shangrila Hotel Buffet. Is really delicious. I don't know how to describe it just too good. Wanna know how good it is? Then try it. Haha.. XD Of course the desserts are the best in Leman Garden. All sorts of cakes, HAGEN DAZ ice cream, Chocolate Fountain and more.. Oh Mamma Mia!! Haha.. XD 

Well last but not least, I hope you little boy had so much fun ya. Although you were basically wearing all my things on that day. My tie, My shirt and my shoe. Haha.. XD The only thing that is yours are the necklace, the jeans and your BODY. Haha.. XD Ok ok.. I don't want to be rude and mean. I'm really glad you enjoy your birthday. :D Hope next year will be better? :D

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100th Post

Woohoooo!!!! I know this is very slow to some of you. But I don't care. I'm gonna say it out loud! This is my 100th post!! 

Woohooooo!!!! Finally!!! 

:D :D :D :D 

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FUN!

On the 2nd of October, there were 2 events. One is this FUN event. Another one will be on the next post. I will never forget this FUN thing. It just brings back so many good, nice and unforgettable memories. Ok first, I was supposed to fetch ET and her sister to apartment but her sister just suddenly can't go. I feel bad and pity for her cause I know she wants to go so badly. Oh well next time then. :D 

When we reach there, ET and I just hang out and watch movie and of course CAM WHORE! Haha.. XD While waiting for the Prince Charming and the Blur Princess. Haha.. :P So when they reached, we straight away went for swimming. 

SWIMMING with them is the best part of this event. We were all hyper up, do all sorts of things. Throw people into the pool, push people into the pool, play games in the pool, fight in the pool and ETC.. I felt like a kid again. Once in awhile being a kid again is definitely FUN and OK. Right? Haha.. XD Swimming also reminds me of the days I throw water balloon at people when I was young, playing whip cream on Jien's birthday and Jump into the pool like BIG SPLASH. I'm loving it. 

You know swimming is actually a very good sport. Right after swimming I felt so so hungry is like all the food been break down like water particles. I must say Jien! Your pasta is delicious! You are getting good princess. Keep it up. :D I just hope you guys love my salad. I know alexy like my salad, because he ate the whole big bowl of my salad. Haha.. XD I want my bowl back btw. Haha.. :P 

After eating, I felt so full. Totally not in the condition for a buffet. Haha.. XD Then we send songs, videos and movies like nobody business to each other. Haha.. XD The day just ended like that. Sometimes doing simple activities and spend time with your close ones can be really special. Live life to the simplest is the key of happiness and I enjoy every bits of time we spend together. :D 

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10.10.2010

I didn't know 10.10.2010 can be such a meaningful day to me. I thought it will be just a normal day. Well it ends with a bang! It started when my mum asked me to go for a chinese dinner event, you know what is my first impression (BORING...) So I started thinking of all the excuses in the world to tell her that I don't wanna go, actually my dad was suppose to go with her but he didn't want to go and my little brother is having his exam soon. So I feel like responsible to go with my mum I guess. 

Well when I reach the place, I saw lots of people and the place was just huge. It is a very big hall and it is located at sentul. Sentul and Jalan Ipoh just remind me of Chung Hwa so much. I met a lot of my mum's friends and of course my mum is so good at memalukan me in front of her friends (sometimes) In this event, there are a lot of performance, food and people giving speeches. The food is not bad surprisingly or maybe I was hungry. Haha.. XD The speeches are just great and really meaningful too. The performance is just hilarious and good. There is this particular performance performed by primary kids. They dance with the song "NOBODY" I didn't laugh out loud, but inside my heart I was laughing like hell. They are just so CUTE and FUNNY!!!! XD 

Last but not least for the main thing right here. Tonight is the day that I had the longest conversation with my mum. Only 2 of us. My mum told me how much she loves me and she really appreciate my presence and she is just grateful to have me. I swear I had never hear her say such thing to me. I was indeed touch. Mama, I love you too!! :D 

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Wash Car

Basically for a guy, when a guy likes his car. He would of course take good care of his own car. Even if there is a small little scratch on it, the guy would make it a VERY BIG DEAL. It is true. If you don't believe me, then try scratching a guy's car. Haha.. XD Bombs away man! 

So..  In my opinion, A car is just like a girl. When a guy likes his car, the guy likes his girl. Same level of love you know. So girls, you guys must understand why guys like their car so much because they love you! Haha.. XD The guy will wash the car, repair the car and make sure the car is constantly shinny. All these things are just like taking care of you, make sure you are secure and make sure you felt loved. 

So girls don't ask a guy why you like the car more than me. Now that is rubbish, of course the guy loves you

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Stress

OMG!!! Stress la!!! Suddenly all out of sudden, I got lots of things to do. Right now, I need to edit my personal statement, finish up my Oversea University application, lots of homework, study for exam and etc... I'm not very good at handling stress. I think. I will become really frustrated and I just feel like bursting something. Haha.. XD Chill... Actually writing personal statement is not that hard, but editing it is even harder ,cause you have to cut short the main points and you would feel like every point is so IMPORTANT. And that Uni application thing is so COMPLICATED, I have so many doubts right now. I can't really proceed in my application. Haih... Life is hard.. :( One more thing, my PS and application thing is due next mon. GRRRR!!!! :(

Oh I just realize my 2nd semester is the hardest compare to other semester. You know why? Cause I got total 8 papers in Sem 2, but in Sem 3 I got only 5 papers. Oh no no no..... But I know I'm not the only one having all these problems. I'm sure other people do have their own stress. So I just have to do my best in everything. I hope all of us will overcome all the task and problems we are having. Wait.. Why hope? WE WILL OVERCOME!!! I KNOW IT!! :D

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Max Boy

30th Sept is my Max boy's birthday! You are now finally 13. Be big boy ya. No more a child ok. And stop  being so annoying ok? Haha.. :P Even though you will nag at me like a grandpa, I still like who you are. Cute and noisy. Haha.. XD Let's enjoy tomorrow dinner ya. Let's eat non stop. Haha.. :D 

Sept just passed. I'm starting to like Sept a lot. This is because I got 2 brothers' birthday fall on the same month. 1st and the 30th. I will remember both days forever cause both are cute and annoying and both are important to me. :D 

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Tired Day

Once again, legend of the guardians. You are not that nice after all. A bit disappointed. Haih.. The effect is really nice, story line erm.. no. Anyway, I had a very tiring day today. Go college then go national library with Alexy and Jien. I hope I did everything I could to help you, Alex! :D After that we go to watch movie and we had sushi. Yummy!! :D But there is just one thing that really makes me feel tired. My mum suddenly asked me to fetch her from the office at 12am. Is a bit crazy. But I just do it for her cause I don't want my dad to end up fetching her and be really tired the next day. So I took the burden for you daddy! :D Papa & Mama sleep well ya! :D 

I realize you have been really attacking me a lot, but I seriously don't mind. Without your attacking, my life could be really quiet I guess. :D

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