This time is real. Today I shall not only talk about myself but a very special friend of mine. A brother to me. Is Wen Wu. Actually I still have lots of things I wanna tell you and I wanna do with you but time is not cooperating with me. Time flies when you are having fun. This blog is basically a memory box for me. I can't remember every single thing so I would use my blog to help me remind me every epic and sad moments. I choose to be tough on the outside. So this is the only place where I can express my feelings and being vulnerable.
I always thought that your flight will be delay as usual. But when I heard about your flight confirmed, I got stun. I basically do not know how to react. Trying to be ready when you leave but no matter how I try to be prepared is never enough.
I know I know yesterday you were really worried and nervous. I can feel it and I can see it. Is totally understandable. You are afraid of don't know what's going to happen to yourself in Russia. You are worried about your family and you are afraid being alone. I know how you feel. That is why. When I see you being so nervous and all, I feel nervous at the same time. Just want you to calm down. You were so nervous until you just keep quiet and that is my first time seeing you so quiet. I'm glad at least I managed to spend almost the whole day with you yesterday. Mahjong, lunch, hang clothes with you, help you to pack and have dinner with you. You were so focus on packing yesterday that I just sat one side and looked at you packing. Last night dinner was great, thank god Alex and Jien joined in too.
Right after the dinner, straight away I went back home and wanted to just fall asleep because I was really tired. But then my guts keep telling me to do something more for you. So I decided to write you a letter and to give you my very first bracelet. A bracelet that I love and I know you like it too. Take it as a lucky charm. When you love something, sometimes is worth giving away because you would like to see that person wearing it. And a letter to summarize what I wanna tell you. In the process of writing the letter, I got really panic because there is only a few more hours left and then you will be flying off. Honestly I didn't sleep well last night. I was rolling here and there. I can't stop thinking about you. Still thinking don't know whether you will be ok.
So today at 4am I woke up. Feeling so scared to face you, but I have to. Went to Jien's house with alex as well and then we started our road journey to the airport. I really dislike the road to the airport. Is always so gloomy and saddening. Makes me feel super sad on the inside. I had a lot of flashbacks from Form 5 until now. The progress of our friendship is incredible. You are an amazing guy. You are funny, random, stubborn, nice, kind, loyal and most importantly a reliable friend. A friend that I can count on when I need you.
When 3 of us reached the airport and we were walking our way to see you, my breathing rate started to increase rapidly and my stomach got tied up like a knot. I was really happy to see you at the same time sad. So all of us talked and then is time for you to go. As I was looking at you passing your passport for the officer to inspect your boarding pass. I wanna ran across to you and just hold on to you and don't let you go. But I can't. As a friend, I would love to go with you to Russia and help you in whatever I can. But then this is part of life. Despite the road ahead of you is uneven, I would still let you go on. Because I want what's best for you so that you can be independent and be a great man! My heart totally sank and I was ready to burst in the airport when you were out of my sight but I hold on.
Right after I send everyone back home. As I was driving my way back home, the sad feeling started to come back. A few teardrops finally fall off and I felt relieved and better. I'm still a boy who believes in fate and hope. Even though I feel blue on the inside, I will pull myself up and look at the bright side.
Now enough talking. Some photos to share. Some of it are the photos that I browse through today and some of it are captured in the airport:
Brother,
You! Don't come back home with that kind of silly face of yours like the above! Take care of yourself ok! Don't be clumsy and reckless! Self control! And Come back home in ONE PIECE! Keep in touch you silly boy!
The End
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